evryday i just wish for the next day to come and past and come and past until it reaches the weekend. enduring evry hour of lessons and breaks that always seems so meaningless and empty.

its all just a vicious cycle that will last two years.

and then i start thinking, why some people can be so happy in SC, ct council, house comp, and whatever whichever. i find evrything and anything so meaningless.. start wondering if SJ could have replaced interact, and if i'd be happier.

whats not helping is that i totally fcked up my spa today. and michie said the MORE inaccurate, the more marks i minus. 49 when the results are 25 for titration.. not a very nice way to start A LEVEL spa. i guess its better to be scared now then be complacent for the long time ahead. its not the spa, more of the fact i used to feel less alone whilst studying and all, in this freaking competitive environment when one lives or dies, i cant really cope.

like whats wrong with telling what bio spa was about. sheesh. pissifying. and in a way im absolutely disgusted. jc life is like a survivor game, throw you in a den and leave you to die like daniel amongst the lions in the bible story. okayy im just mumbling on. ill prove the whole world im able, 4as and a h3 chem. i still have people to turn back on :) i know.

but for now, carmen wake up and STUDY and DEPEND on YOURSELF.

a tribute to michelle my bestest friend ever, for she just lifted my mood up 10 times better whilst talking online. BEST FRIENDS ALWAYS once again. i swear by it =) also her blog has the bear i gave her. so pretty..

weekend was great btw =D shopped and shopped X 21324234
met him often and had quality time tgther <3
mom and aunts spent 1000 bucks at esprit, i accounted for some.
ryan is still the cutest little boy ever and i wish he wouldnt grow up.
training killed my legs, aching till now. im so unfit :(
went to denise's church, still confused abt which church to attend now.
pampered mom on MOTHERS DAY.

and many many more..... weekends are the best. i await and welcome JUNE HOLIDAYS with open arms.